So in continuing my 30 days of truth... Missed a few days, it's been going really fast and furious so time just slips out of my hands! So here are a few days combined..
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Something you love about yourself:
I love that if I put my mind to something, I can accomplish it. I feel empowered by self motivation and like I can do anything if I want it bad enough! I don't always want it bad enough which may be my problem haha!
Something you have to forgive yourself for:
Hm. This might sound funny... But I need to forgive myself for not doing anything with my life before meeting Chris. I feel like I let too much time slip away when I could have been going to school or traveling or missions or something. I think I let fear hold me back and so I never pursued my dreams or really much of anything other than working dead end jobs. In no way do I regret my time with Chris, or how young I was when we started dating, I'm talking about before then and also while we were dating and before we got married.. I could have done a lot more..
Something you have to forgive someone for:
Wow.. I had a horrible experience with a couple of so called friends who did a lot of backstabbing.. I still feel hurt and anger about that and I know I need to get over it. Kind of hard sometimes when I still "see" them on FB or something and they are best friends now and I was kicked to the curb after introducing them.. It's hard. IT'S ALSO VERY LAME that I'm still upset about it.. It was like a 1-2 year long thing that just dragged out which is maybe why I'm still hurt. I don't know if the hurt will ever go away, but I need to get rid of the bitterness since it's only hurting myself.
Anyways, I gotta run, school today! Then the weekend, woohoo!
Beth
Friday, October 22, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
30 days of truth
So I found this on a friends blog and decided to do it. 30 days I'll answer 30 questions about myself. May not be able to blog every day, but I will answer all those questions haha! Here they are if you are interested in doing it yourself!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Ok so day one..
What is something I hate about myself..
I hate how critical I am of myself. There is really soo much I could put here, and that just goes to show you how critical I am of myself! I don't give myself a break, I'm incredibly hard on myself telling myself that I'm not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, etc. I have to stop myself mid-sentence sometimes and force those thoughts away because I know they are damaging to me! God made me exactly how He wanted me and I'm flawless in His eyes. I know that every time I comment on something in my head that puts me down, HE hurts, because I'm beating up His design! That is what I hate about myself.. But I'm working on it... And all the other things too..
So in the life of Beth..
Not much new really. Only about 3 weeks left of school. Psyching out now.. Have to tell myself to breath, and NOT beat myself up haha! I'm already pep-talking myself in case I go somewhere awful. I'm going to be upbeat! AND SUCK UP! haha! No really, I'm already planning on doing my best, learning something every day, working on what I need to get better at, and not letting people bring me down. Only 160 hours and hopefully they are a wonderful 160 hours!
Hard to believe it's almost here.. Seems like yesterday I started and was all nervous about school! And they are like family now, made some friends and it's been so wonderful going with Jenny and getting to know her better. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful sister in law who I can really talk to and freak out with and be excited with!! What a blessing God has given me in her!! Love you Jenny! ;) It's so awesome to truly love my extended family, all of them! I get along great with all my sister in laws and mother in law and of course all the boys haha! So lucky!!
God is good.. All the time.. Have to keep telling myself when the going gets tough. He is our provider and what a good one He is!
Much love,
Beth
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Ok so day one..
What is something I hate about myself..
I hate how critical I am of myself. There is really soo much I could put here, and that just goes to show you how critical I am of myself! I don't give myself a break, I'm incredibly hard on myself telling myself that I'm not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, etc. I have to stop myself mid-sentence sometimes and force those thoughts away because I know they are damaging to me! God made me exactly how He wanted me and I'm flawless in His eyes. I know that every time I comment on something in my head that puts me down, HE hurts, because I'm beating up His design! That is what I hate about myself.. But I'm working on it... And all the other things too..
So in the life of Beth..
Not much new really. Only about 3 weeks left of school. Psyching out now.. Have to tell myself to breath, and NOT beat myself up haha! I'm already pep-talking myself in case I go somewhere awful. I'm going to be upbeat! AND SUCK UP! haha! No really, I'm already planning on doing my best, learning something every day, working on what I need to get better at, and not letting people bring me down. Only 160 hours and hopefully they are a wonderful 160 hours!
Hard to believe it's almost here.. Seems like yesterday I started and was all nervous about school! And they are like family now, made some friends and it's been so wonderful going with Jenny and getting to know her better. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful sister in law who I can really talk to and freak out with and be excited with!! What a blessing God has given me in her!! Love you Jenny! ;) It's so awesome to truly love my extended family, all of them! I get along great with all my sister in laws and mother in law and of course all the boys haha! So lucky!!
God is good.. All the time.. Have to keep telling myself when the going gets tough. He is our provider and what a good one He is!
Much love,
Beth
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