Ok, so I've been noticing that lately people seem to be blogging more about fitness, diets and weight loss. So I figured since it seems to be working for others, maybe it will work for me! I started a no sugar (as in desserts) and no soda diet about a month ago and tho it seems like it's taking forever, I'm actually starting to lose weight. Very slowly, but that is the only thing I've changed. If anything, I'm not being as careful as I should be with the rest of my diet as in eating too much pizza and fatty foods lately. I think since I'm not eating desserts and curbing my sweet tooth I'm having a harder time being strict in the other area's of my diet. So starting tomorrow I'm going to be trying a little harder in that area. Mon-Thurs I can do great, making sure I've had my fruit and veggie servings throughout the day but Fridays and the weekends are hard for me. Working full time has taken a bit of a toll on my workouts lately too. I am having such a hard time making it to the actual gym once I've come home and all I want to do is sit down and eat dinner. I've been doing ok with working out at home doing Jillian Michaels or P90X but I figure I'm paying for the membership I need to be going more! Plus I get a better and harder workout it seems at the gym.
So yeah, just wanted to write this to kind of keep myself accountable with my eating during the weekends. If I continue to lose like I have been the last 2 weeks or so I'll be down to my wedding weight by May!! I think I can do it!
Things at work have been going good too.. Finished up my 3rd week there, soo hard to believe that!! It was a pretty good week too. Every day is looong, but it is getting better every day I'm there! I think it can only keep getting better! God is so good in providing like He did.. I'm so thankful for this job! Thank you Lord!
Graduation is less than 2 months away! I can't believe it! I remember finding out that we would have to wait till May to graduate and thinking.. that is SOO far away!! My parents are coming out too! Wahoo! May is going to be a busy month! We are adding another sister to our Christensen family! Tim is getting married May 28th to the lovely Heidi Cardoza! So thankful for my inlaws, I've been truly blessed!
Well, I'm off to go get ready for tomorrow!
<3 Beth
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
New Job!!
First of all.. I got the job!! I started last Monday the 21st! And man, it is a looot of new stuff. I think I'm finally getting it tho... Thank goodness, too many more days of wanting to cry at my lunch break from a rough morning I don't think I could take! It's going good tho, everyone is so nice and helpful, even tho I'm new and still learning they have all taken me under their wing and made me feel at home! I really like it! Can't wait to have a few months under my belt so I can actually sound like I know what I'm talking about!
Apparently there was a discussion at work over how old I was lol!! Oh man.. I guess I don't age. Just recently saw a pic of myself at 16 and I literally look exactly the same!! GAH! Don't know how to change that tho?? I didn't start wearing makeup till I was like 17 so that old pic I wasn't even wearing any! So I guess my makeup job needs to be a little better... Maybe update the hair.. Any ideas?? I'm thinking maybe shoulder length, some bangs and a darker color or the highlights/lowlights with the red? I looved that.. I might do that. Can't decide on the bangs tho.. Kinda nervous to try anything too new or too short!! I just might end up looking 16 until I'm 30! haha!! I do plan on using my college I.D. until people start catching on...
So I've been working on my diet lately, went on a sugar fast with my mom till my graduation May 7th! So far so good, no cheating! Which is amazing for me since I have a major sweet tooth! I've also cut out soda which is another huge deal! No results yet, still working on the rest of the diet haha! I have about 9 weeks till they are here and I would love to see some change. It is SO hard to workout when working full time... I've been pulling 10 hour days all week and I'm beat by 6:30... It's so hard to get the energy to go to the gym or jump on the spin bike.. I gotta work on that.. So far this week I've got 2 workouts in. Still trying to get my usual 5 days in! It's going to take some time I think to get into the habit. Have to do it tho! My body does not respond well to no exercise.
Broke our washing machine last weekend.. UGH. Hopefully we can just fix our old one, poor Chris had such a fiasco with the repair place today. He was going to have it all fixed up and ready for me when I got home. It was so sweet!! But he got it home and it DUMPED water all over the floor... They didn't fix it. So he has to take it all the way back tomorrow and tell them they better fix it for free or give him his money back!! Hopefully it all works out! I need my washer! lol!
Oh... tired tonight.. I already feel like falling asleep and it's 9:30!! I'm so old.
Beth
Apparently there was a discussion at work over how old I was lol!! Oh man.. I guess I don't age. Just recently saw a pic of myself at 16 and I literally look exactly the same!! GAH! Don't know how to change that tho?? I didn't start wearing makeup till I was like 17 so that old pic I wasn't even wearing any! So I guess my makeup job needs to be a little better... Maybe update the hair.. Any ideas?? I'm thinking maybe shoulder length, some bangs and a darker color or the highlights/lowlights with the red? I looved that.. I might do that. Can't decide on the bangs tho.. Kinda nervous to try anything too new or too short!! I just might end up looking 16 until I'm 30! haha!! I do plan on using my college I.D. until people start catching on...
So I've been working on my diet lately, went on a sugar fast with my mom till my graduation May 7th! So far so good, no cheating! Which is amazing for me since I have a major sweet tooth! I've also cut out soda which is another huge deal! No results yet, still working on the rest of the diet haha! I have about 9 weeks till they are here and I would love to see some change. It is SO hard to workout when working full time... I've been pulling 10 hour days all week and I'm beat by 6:30... It's so hard to get the energy to go to the gym or jump on the spin bike.. I gotta work on that.. So far this week I've got 2 workouts in. Still trying to get my usual 5 days in! It's going to take some time I think to get into the habit. Have to do it tho! My body does not respond well to no exercise.
Broke our washing machine last weekend.. UGH. Hopefully we can just fix our old one, poor Chris had such a fiasco with the repair place today. He was going to have it all fixed up and ready for me when I got home. It was so sweet!! But he got it home and it DUMPED water all over the floor... They didn't fix it. So he has to take it all the way back tomorrow and tell them they better fix it for free or give him his money back!! Hopefully it all works out! I need my washer! lol!
Oh... tired tonight.. I already feel like falling asleep and it's 9:30!! I'm so old.
Beth
Monday, February 14, 2011
God is a faithful God!
So much has been happening, I really need to get better about blogging. It's so weird to get on here after a few weeks off and see just how much has changed since I last posted!!
I WAS actually hired at my extern site! I was only able to get one full time day a week but it has been giving me more experience and I'm getting more and more comfortable there.
So I have been crazy stressing lately, work has been dead for Chris and since I haven't really had steady work yet I felt like a noose was just tightening up. I would think about it and just feel this heavy burden settle over me.
Lately at church the message has been about putting on your full armor of God to withstand the devil's advances. It has been SO encouraging to me to realize that when I feel down and frustrated and starting to lose hope that I can be protected and cared for and that God DOES answer prayer and WILL take care of those who put their trust in Him. WOW. I feel like God has been stretching and testing our faith, mine especially. He has daily been answering prayer tho. I had the opportunity to interview for a position last Monday and hadn't really heard anything solid from them and then BAM, they want me! And then a few weeks ago I had an interview and hadn't heard much from it but then they want me to come back and have a second interview with them this week too! When God blesses, He does so abundantly! So I will have a job by the end of this week and I can't believe it! He just dropped these into my lap and He is GOOD.
Yes, I'm super nervous about starting at a new location with all new people. But you know what? I can do ALL things through Ch
rist who strengthens me!! I WILL have confidence in myself knowing that whatever I put my mind to, I can do.
My trip to Colorado was.. A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. It was so wonderful to have Chris come with me this time, everyone missed him so much! We were able to catch up with everyone and it was lovely.
I've never had such a hard time leaving before. I couldn't stop crying. For some reason being away from my home for so long and then finally seeing it and being there and driving those old streets just pulled at me. So to leave it again was just so hard. I know that God is in control and that no matter what, where Chris is, that's where I am. I chose him and I choose him every single day but it is hard to be away. My siblings grew into giants while I was away. It was so hard to see them so big and ADULT. That's not my little sister and brother! lol!! Miss them.. :(
Things have been good tho, God is continuously showing me His character and goodness.
I'll try and post more frequently, maybe with pictures etc since that seems to be the popular thing haha! I'm kinda boring.
Looking forward to the next couple weeks to see what's in store next!
<3 Beth
I WAS actually hired at my extern site! I was only able to get one full time day a week but it has been giving me more experience and I'm getting more and more comfortable there.
So I have been crazy stressing lately, work has been dead for Chris and since I haven't really had steady work yet I felt like a noose was just tightening up. I would think about it and just feel this heavy burden settle over me.
Lately at church the message has been about putting on your full armor of God to withstand the devil's advances. It has been SO encouraging to me to realize that when I feel down and frustrated and starting to lose hope that I can be protected and cared for and that God DOES answer prayer and WILL take care of those who put their trust in Him. WOW. I feel like God has been stretching and testing our faith, mine especially. He has daily been answering prayer tho. I had the opportunity to interview for a position last Monday and hadn't really heard anything solid from them and then BAM, they want me! And then a few weeks ago I had an interview and hadn't heard much from it but then they want me to come back and have a second interview with them this week too! When God blesses, He does so abundantly! So I will have a job by the end of this week and I can't believe it! He just dropped these into my lap and He is GOOD.
Yes, I'm super nervous about starting at a new location with all new people. But you know what? I can do ALL things through Ch
rist who strengthens me!! I WILL have confidence in myself knowing that whatever I put my mind to, I can do.
My trip to Colorado was.. A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. It was so wonderful to have Chris come with me this time, everyone missed him so much! We were able to catch up with everyone and it was lovely.
I've never had such a hard time leaving before. I couldn't stop crying. For some reason being away from my home for so long and then finally seeing it and being there and driving those old streets just pulled at me. So to leave it again was just so hard. I know that God is in control and that no matter what, where Chris is, that's where I am. I chose him and I choose him every single day but it is hard to be away. My siblings grew into giants while I was away. It was so hard to see them so big and ADULT. That's not my little sister and brother! lol!! Miss them.. :(
Things have been good tho, God is continuously showing me His character and goodness.
I'll try and post more frequently, maybe with pictures etc since that seems to be the popular thing haha! I'm kinda boring.
Looking forward to the next couple weeks to see what's in store next!
<3 Beth
Thursday, January 6, 2011
DOOOONE!!!
Holy Cow..
DONE!
I am officially DONE with school!! I finished my extern on the 4th and man.. what a weird feeling to really have nothing to do and no where to go! Hopefully not for long tho, on the job hunt I go!
In great news.. We are going to Colorado in a little over a week!! I can't believe it!! It's finally here! Almost a year since I've seen everyone and Chris hasn't been there since we left! Oh my gosh, can you tell I'm excited?? We've got a packed week and I can't wait to see everyone!
Once I get back it's on to the job hunt! I wasn't hired at my extern site, despite the fact they really wanted to.. :( They just don't have any open positions and no funding to make one.. (they are a non-profit, medicaid only office funded by grants and fundraisers, hence.. no extra funds for another assistant) I am a little sad about that, having become familiar with the office and the people and the dentists. Needless to say I'm a little nervous about looking for another position. I've decided dentists are truly some of the most picky, finicky people. They all do things differently and it takes time to really get to know how each individual does it! I'm also nervous to get out there and really be on my own. I hope I'm able to have a week or so of training before they give me my own "column" of patients. Either way, I'm going to try and not stress about it and know that God is in control over all and has something out there for me and I just need to "suck it up buttercup" as Ms. Lisa would say, lol!!
Our Thanksgiving and Christmas were wonderful! Aside from not having any time with my folks to celebrate the holidays, it was perfect! We partied at the Christensens for a few days over Christmas and it was a blast! Mom C. always plans the best little games for us. It's such a good time! Chris loved all the presents I got him, hurray! Aside from some drama with an online order everything was awesome. Soo much better than last year when all I got him either didn't fit or they shipped the wrong thing to me, etc. So yeah, awesome Christmas! Had some friends down for New Years and that was fun, stayed up far too late and I'm still kind of recovering from all those late nights.. Does that make me old??? Gah!
Super excited for Colorado!!! Only one more week!
Love,
Beth
DONE!
I am officially DONE with school!! I finished my extern on the 4th and man.. what a weird feeling to really have nothing to do and no where to go! Hopefully not for long tho, on the job hunt I go!
In great news.. We are going to Colorado in a little over a week!! I can't believe it!! It's finally here! Almost a year since I've seen everyone and Chris hasn't been there since we left! Oh my gosh, can you tell I'm excited?? We've got a packed week and I can't wait to see everyone!
Once I get back it's on to the job hunt! I wasn't hired at my extern site, despite the fact they really wanted to.. :( They just don't have any open positions and no funding to make one.. (they are a non-profit, medicaid only office funded by grants and fundraisers, hence.. no extra funds for another assistant) I am a little sad about that, having become familiar with the office and the people and the dentists. Needless to say I'm a little nervous about looking for another position. I've decided dentists are truly some of the most picky, finicky people. They all do things differently and it takes time to really get to know how each individual does it! I'm also nervous to get out there and really be on my own. I hope I'm able to have a week or so of training before they give me my own "column" of patients. Either way, I'm going to try and not stress about it and know that God is in control over all and has something out there for me and I just need to "suck it up buttercup" as Ms. Lisa would say, lol!!
Our Thanksgiving and Christmas were wonderful! Aside from not having any time with my folks to celebrate the holidays, it was perfect! We partied at the Christensens for a few days over Christmas and it was a blast! Mom C. always plans the best little games for us. It's such a good time! Chris loved all the presents I got him, hurray! Aside from some drama with an online order everything was awesome. Soo much better than last year when all I got him either didn't fit or they shipped the wrong thing to me, etc. So yeah, awesome Christmas! Had some friends down for New Years and that was fun, stayed up far too late and I'm still kind of recovering from all those late nights.. Does that make me old??? Gah!
Super excited for Colorado!!! Only one more week!
Love,
Beth
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Winter 2010
Hello all!!
Been a while since my last update, thought I would let you know how my extern was going!! I am down to 42 hours over the next three weeks, shouldn't be too bad! It's going really good, really enjoying it! The only downside of this whole thing is that my office won't be able to hire me. I'm really bummed about it! They have told me multiple times now that they would love to hire me but unfortunately with them being a non-profit, medicaid only office, they don't have the funds to hire another assistant. :( Kinda sucks.. Oh well, I know there is an office out there for me where I will fit in perfectly and is the right place for me! Just have to trust God and wait on Him! Looking forward to the next couple weeks, they are going to fly by!
The holidays have been wonderful so far! Had a great Thanksgiving with family and friends. Chris was gone for what turned into a month in Kansas and that was hard, he actually got home just a week and a half or so ago. So nice to have him home again! That made the holiday season come up very quickly! We didn't actually get our tree till last week which was weird for me since I'm used to the day after Thanksgiving! I love Christmas! Our house is all decorated and now with our tree up it just glows.. Looove! Finally got my Christmas shopping done, I've decided I'm never going to wait that long again, the pickings were slim! I am pretty pleased with what I got for Chris! Unfortunately, I'm waiting on some things to get here, hopefully in time!! They kinda screwed it up in shipping and it may take a bit to get here, which stinks, I wanted to give it to him for Christmas!! Oh well, here's hoping!
We're also planning a trip to see my folks!! Hoping for mid January!! So not much longer, woohoo!!
So there it is, a little update! Merry Christmas!!
Beth
Been a while since my last update, thought I would let you know how my extern was going!! I am down to 42 hours over the next three weeks, shouldn't be too bad! It's going really good, really enjoying it! The only downside of this whole thing is that my office won't be able to hire me. I'm really bummed about it! They have told me multiple times now that they would love to hire me but unfortunately with them being a non-profit, medicaid only office, they don't have the funds to hire another assistant. :( Kinda sucks.. Oh well, I know there is an office out there for me where I will fit in perfectly and is the right place for me! Just have to trust God and wait on Him! Looking forward to the next couple weeks, they are going to fly by!
The holidays have been wonderful so far! Had a great Thanksgiving with family and friends. Chris was gone for what turned into a month in Kansas and that was hard, he actually got home just a week and a half or so ago. So nice to have him home again! That made the holiday season come up very quickly! We didn't actually get our tree till last week which was weird for me since I'm used to the day after Thanksgiving! I love Christmas! Our house is all decorated and now with our tree up it just glows.. Looove! Finally got my Christmas shopping done, I've decided I'm never going to wait that long again, the pickings were slim! I am pretty pleased with what I got for Chris! Unfortunately, I'm waiting on some things to get here, hopefully in time!! They kinda screwed it up in shipping and it may take a bit to get here, which stinks, I wanted to give it to him for Christmas!! Oh well, here's hoping!
We're also planning a trip to see my folks!! Hoping for mid January!! So not much longer, woohoo!!
So there it is, a little update! Merry Christmas!!
Beth
Monday, November 15, 2010
A break, finally!
Wow, done with the class part of school! It's so weird, honestly. I can't believe it's over and the dreaded extern is almost here! I'm getting excited tho, hurray! As of now, still don't know where I'm going. Pretty frustrated with my school right now... I feel like they didn't try real hard to make sure I had a place when I was supposed to! So yeah, I should find out sometime this week and it couldn't come sooner. I am dying to know and would love to be able to plan! So this week is all about relaxing and preparing! I have a whoole week of nothing and it's wonderful! The only sad thing is Chris is gone for the next 7-10 days in KS working! I'm so sad. :( Thankfully I have a wonderful second family to stay with! My in-laws rock!
Here are the last few days of my days of truth.. I'm ahead by one day but didn't feel like adding on to it later.. haha!
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life? Traveled more! I loooove old places/history and would love to travel all over the world!
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.. I would make a playlist to Chris of all our songs that mean something to me, or remind me of the times we spent together! I don't feel like writing all the songs out.. sorry!
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today? I don't know!
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? lol, no not really. I've had it pretty easy all my life and the only times I have ever felt depressed I realized I was being super self-centered and lame. Life is what you make it!
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now? I'm done with school and moving on in my career! It's exciting! I have an amazing husband and life is good!
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? CRY. From sheer terror..
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. Weelll.... I would change my self control! I wish I had more of it!!
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
I don't feel like doing this one to be honest. Sorry! And this IS all about the truth right? ha!
Well, hopefully I will know about my externship tomorrow!
~Beth
Here are the last few days of my days of truth.. I'm ahead by one day but didn't feel like adding on to it later.. haha!
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life? Traveled more! I loooove old places/history and would love to travel all over the world!
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.. I would make a playlist to Chris of all our songs that mean something to me, or remind me of the times we spent together! I don't feel like writing all the songs out.. sorry!
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today? I don't know!
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? lol, no not really. I've had it pretty easy all my life and the only times I have ever felt depressed I realized I was being super self-centered and lame. Life is what you make it!
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now? I'm done with school and moving on in my career! It's exciting! I have an amazing husband and life is good!
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? CRY. From sheer terror..
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. Weelll.... I would change my self control! I wish I had more of it!!
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
I don't feel like doing this one to be honest. Sorry! And this IS all about the truth right? ha!
Well, hopefully I will know about my externship tomorrow!
~Beth
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Two days folks!
Two days!! Oh my goodness!!!
Unbelievable! It's almost here woohoo! Thank God the nerves have subsided a bit, my stomach doesn't hurt every day like it was lol! I'm starting to get kinda excited actually.. I'm sure I'll be freaking out my first day tho haha!
Here are the last couple days I missed:
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without? People that bring me down! I want to surround myself with encouraging friends and my wonderful family!
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something? The Bible obviously! Other than that, I have really enjoyed the Bodie Thoene books on times during the bible, it really made me view Jesus as more of a person that you could connect with and bond with.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage? No.. I believe you should love everyone, that no sin is worse than another, but I don't believe it's right.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? I'm a Christian and believe Jesus is the son of God and my Saviour!! And a steadfast Republican even when I hate politicians..
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol? I used to believe neither of both. Still believe that drugs are never a good idea to get into, not only because of the havoc it has on your body, but how uncontrollable they are. You cannot do drugs in moderation. Alchohol in moderation I think is ok. I'll indulge in a drink, I won't ever go out and get wasted tho.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? If she is ok, I'll be there, making it up to her and helping her realize that it was just a fight, that I love her and she means so much to me!!
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life? Wasted so much time doing NOTHING when I was younger... :( And I wish I would have been ok with Chris being a police officer while we lived in Colorado.. Maybe then we would have never moved.. I kick myself over that all the time..
Well, Chris will be gone for a few days in KS working. I'm kinda sad. I finally get time off of both work AND school, which hasn't happened in 7 months.. And he's gone the week I have off.. Oh well, I'm going to make the best of it and spend it with my wonderful in-laws! It will be nice and relaxing, which I def. need after the craziness of the last month!! I'll see him this weekend, so that will break it up a bit, thankfully!
Well, I'll be updated soon after I find out where I'm externing!!
Love,
~ME
Unbelievable! It's almost here woohoo! Thank God the nerves have subsided a bit, my stomach doesn't hurt every day like it was lol! I'm starting to get kinda excited actually.. I'm sure I'll be freaking out my first day tho haha!
Here are the last couple days I missed:
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without? People that bring me down! I want to surround myself with encouraging friends and my wonderful family!
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something? The Bible obviously! Other than that, I have really enjoyed the Bodie Thoene books on times during the bible, it really made me view Jesus as more of a person that you could connect with and bond with.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage? No.. I believe you should love everyone, that no sin is worse than another, but I don't believe it's right.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? I'm a Christian and believe Jesus is the son of God and my Saviour!! And a steadfast Republican even when I hate politicians..
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol? I used to believe neither of both. Still believe that drugs are never a good idea to get into, not only because of the havoc it has on your body, but how uncontrollable they are. You cannot do drugs in moderation. Alchohol in moderation I think is ok. I'll indulge in a drink, I won't ever go out and get wasted tho.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? If she is ok, I'll be there, making it up to her and helping her realize that it was just a fight, that I love her and she means so much to me!!
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life? Wasted so much time doing NOTHING when I was younger... :( And I wish I would have been ok with Chris being a police officer while we lived in Colorado.. Maybe then we would have never moved.. I kick myself over that all the time..
Well, Chris will be gone for a few days in KS working. I'm kinda sad. I finally get time off of both work AND school, which hasn't happened in 7 months.. And he's gone the week I have off.. Oh well, I'm going to make the best of it and spend it with my wonderful in-laws! It will be nice and relaxing, which I def. need after the craziness of the last month!! I'll see him this weekend, so that will break it up a bit, thankfully!
Well, I'll be updated soon after I find out where I'm externing!!
Love,
~ME
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
One more week..
Wow, time is flying and I'm getting behind!! Here are the last TEN days of truth! Goodness!
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do: As morbid as this sounds, I hope I die before Chris does in this life. I never want to be without him.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for: Jesus, Chris and my mom. I know that's three people, but they have been so instrumental in my life and are my rocks.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap: Honestly, I won't name names but you remember what was it, day 5 or something? The two girls? Yeah, those two..
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted: I feel like my Colorado people are drifting.. It's been almost a year since I've seen everyone. My family, my best friend and like it or not, being 800 miles away just sucks..
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know: Honestly I feel like right now I'm surrounded by good people in my life! I'm blessed!
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on: it's either: you have a booty! Or, I wish I had your butt.. Sometimes just a statement or yeah.. not sure if it's a compliment! I've also had compliments on my smile..
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on: I like my eyes, but no one else seems to notice.. haha!! Chris does, that's all that matters right?
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days: Hm.. Not sure actually. I remember a lot of breaking benjamin when me and Chris were long distance, it was melancholy and nice.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down: Jesus is my hero and He doesn't let me down..
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it: Like I said, I would not and would never want to live without my Chris. Long distance SUCKED and the idea of not having him in my life is awful.
Well, only about a week left. Nerves are setting in.
Beth
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do: As morbid as this sounds, I hope I die before Chris does in this life. I never want to be without him.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for: Jesus, Chris and my mom. I know that's three people, but they have been so instrumental in my life and are my rocks.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap: Honestly, I won't name names but you remember what was it, day 5 or something? The two girls? Yeah, those two..
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted: I feel like my Colorado people are drifting.. It's been almost a year since I've seen everyone. My family, my best friend and like it or not, being 800 miles away just sucks..
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know: Honestly I feel like right now I'm surrounded by good people in my life! I'm blessed!
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on: it's either: you have a booty! Or, I wish I had your butt.. Sometimes just a statement or yeah.. not sure if it's a compliment! I've also had compliments on my smile..
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on: I like my eyes, but no one else seems to notice.. haha!! Chris does, that's all that matters right?
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days: Hm.. Not sure actually. I remember a lot of breaking benjamin when me and Chris were long distance, it was melancholy and nice.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down: Jesus is my hero and He doesn't let me down..
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it: Like I said, I would not and would never want to live without my Chris. Long distance SUCKED and the idea of not having him in my life is awful.
Well, only about a week left. Nerves are setting in.
Beth
Friday, October 22, 2010
Day 2, 3 and 4
So in continuing my 30 days of truth... Missed a few days, it's been going really fast and furious so time just slips out of my hands! So here are a few days combined..
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Something you love about yourself:
I love that if I put my mind to something, I can accomplish it. I feel empowered by self motivation and like I can do anything if I want it bad enough! I don't always want it bad enough which may be my problem haha!
Something you have to forgive yourself for:
Hm. This might sound funny... But I need to forgive myself for not doing anything with my life before meeting Chris. I feel like I let too much time slip away when I could have been going to school or traveling or missions or something. I think I let fear hold me back and so I never pursued my dreams or really much of anything other than working dead end jobs. In no way do I regret my time with Chris, or how young I was when we started dating, I'm talking about before then and also while we were dating and before we got married.. I could have done a lot more..
Something you have to forgive someone for:
Wow.. I had a horrible experience with a couple of so called friends who did a lot of backstabbing.. I still feel hurt and anger about that and I know I need to get over it. Kind of hard sometimes when I still "see" them on FB or something and they are best friends now and I was kicked to the curb after introducing them.. It's hard. IT'S ALSO VERY LAME that I'm still upset about it.. It was like a 1-2 year long thing that just dragged out which is maybe why I'm still hurt. I don't know if the hurt will ever go away, but I need to get rid of the bitterness since it's only hurting myself.
Anyways, I gotta run, school today! Then the weekend, woohoo!
Beth
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Something you love about yourself:
I love that if I put my mind to something, I can accomplish it. I feel empowered by self motivation and like I can do anything if I want it bad enough! I don't always want it bad enough which may be my problem haha!
Something you have to forgive yourself for:
Hm. This might sound funny... But I need to forgive myself for not doing anything with my life before meeting Chris. I feel like I let too much time slip away when I could have been going to school or traveling or missions or something. I think I let fear hold me back and so I never pursued my dreams or really much of anything other than working dead end jobs. In no way do I regret my time with Chris, or how young I was when we started dating, I'm talking about before then and also while we were dating and before we got married.. I could have done a lot more..
Something you have to forgive someone for:
Wow.. I had a horrible experience with a couple of so called friends who did a lot of backstabbing.. I still feel hurt and anger about that and I know I need to get over it. Kind of hard sometimes when I still "see" them on FB or something and they are best friends now and I was kicked to the curb after introducing them.. It's hard. IT'S ALSO VERY LAME that I'm still upset about it.. It was like a 1-2 year long thing that just dragged out which is maybe why I'm still hurt. I don't know if the hurt will ever go away, but I need to get rid of the bitterness since it's only hurting myself.
Anyways, I gotta run, school today! Then the weekend, woohoo!
Beth
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
30 days of truth
So I found this on a friends blog and decided to do it. 30 days I'll answer 30 questions about myself. May not be able to blog every day, but I will answer all those questions haha! Here they are if you are interested in doing it yourself!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Ok so day one..
What is something I hate about myself..
I hate how critical I am of myself. There is really soo much I could put here, and that just goes to show you how critical I am of myself! I don't give myself a break, I'm incredibly hard on myself telling myself that I'm not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, etc. I have to stop myself mid-sentence sometimes and force those thoughts away because I know they are damaging to me! God made me exactly how He wanted me and I'm flawless in His eyes. I know that every time I comment on something in my head that puts me down, HE hurts, because I'm beating up His design! That is what I hate about myself.. But I'm working on it... And all the other things too..
So in the life of Beth..
Not much new really. Only about 3 weeks left of school. Psyching out now.. Have to tell myself to breath, and NOT beat myself up haha! I'm already pep-talking myself in case I go somewhere awful. I'm going to be upbeat! AND SUCK UP! haha! No really, I'm already planning on doing my best, learning something every day, working on what I need to get better at, and not letting people bring me down. Only 160 hours and hopefully they are a wonderful 160 hours!
Hard to believe it's almost here.. Seems like yesterday I started and was all nervous about school! And they are like family now, made some friends and it's been so wonderful going with Jenny and getting to know her better. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful sister in law who I can really talk to and freak out with and be excited with!! What a blessing God has given me in her!! Love you Jenny! ;) It's so awesome to truly love my extended family, all of them! I get along great with all my sister in laws and mother in law and of course all the boys haha! So lucky!!
God is good.. All the time.. Have to keep telling myself when the going gets tough. He is our provider and what a good one He is!
Much love,
Beth
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Ok so day one..
What is something I hate about myself..
I hate how critical I am of myself. There is really soo much I could put here, and that just goes to show you how critical I am of myself! I don't give myself a break, I'm incredibly hard on myself telling myself that I'm not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, etc. I have to stop myself mid-sentence sometimes and force those thoughts away because I know they are damaging to me! God made me exactly how He wanted me and I'm flawless in His eyes. I know that every time I comment on something in my head that puts me down, HE hurts, because I'm beating up His design! That is what I hate about myself.. But I'm working on it... And all the other things too..
So in the life of Beth..
Not much new really. Only about 3 weeks left of school. Psyching out now.. Have to tell myself to breath, and NOT beat myself up haha! I'm already pep-talking myself in case I go somewhere awful. I'm going to be upbeat! AND SUCK UP! haha! No really, I'm already planning on doing my best, learning something every day, working on what I need to get better at, and not letting people bring me down. Only 160 hours and hopefully they are a wonderful 160 hours!
Hard to believe it's almost here.. Seems like yesterday I started and was all nervous about school! And they are like family now, made some friends and it's been so wonderful going with Jenny and getting to know her better. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful sister in law who I can really talk to and freak out with and be excited with!! What a blessing God has given me in her!! Love you Jenny! ;) It's so awesome to truly love my extended family, all of them! I get along great with all my sister in laws and mother in law and of course all the boys haha! So lucky!!
God is good.. All the time.. Have to keep telling myself when the going gets tough. He is our provider and what a good one He is!
Much love,
Beth
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Fall!
Holy cow,
It's FALL!!! Where did summer go?! Totally felt like I wasn't able to truly enjoy summer because of school.. oh well, it was worth it and hopefully next summer I'll be working and able to enjoy it even more! ha! Next year is going to be so different!
Only a month and a half left folks! 5 1/2 months went entirely too fast. Good and bad really. Can't believe it! Things are going really good still, finally feeling like I'm starting to know my stuff a bit more. Still have a looot to learn and it will be hard first starting out in a real office environment! Please be praying for me to be placed in a good office with a dentist that is patient and willing to teach me and doesn't freak out over little things. I keep hearing scary stories of other people in extern getting a scary dentist/office manager and that just terrifies me! I know that it isn't permanent and if I keep a positive and teachable attitude it will help but yeah.. mean dentists are just scary! So I'm pretty nervous about that.. And also pray for confidence and for me to not be insanely nervous haha! It's going to be here before I know it!
Life has been good lately! Work is really slow for Chris so that has been hard, but God sustains us and has been so good. We are not lacking in anything! :) He is still working towards getting his GRE in Pyschology. He's been studying like crazy! If he does good on this test it would cut down his school time a LOT and that would be a good thing since we are down to about 9 months till he would hopefully be starting academy! So pray for him on October 9th if you think about it!
I'm also preparing for a big test on the 8th. My Missouri Basic Skills test is that day! If I can pass that it opens the door for me to continue my education and have a chance to improve my skills in other areas called expanded functions. Basically that means depending on the classes I choose I can do more than just an average DA. Which would be awesome! Still getting straight A's at school, it's exciting!! Looks good on a resume too.. ;)
So coming up here soon we are going up to KC for a Chiefs vs. Bronco's game with some friends! It's going to be CRAZY cold, but I can't wait! GO Broncos!!
Well, I'm off to the gym!
Love,
Beth
It's FALL!!! Where did summer go?! Totally felt like I wasn't able to truly enjoy summer because of school.. oh well, it was worth it and hopefully next summer I'll be working and able to enjoy it even more! ha! Next year is going to be so different!
Only a month and a half left folks! 5 1/2 months went entirely too fast. Good and bad really. Can't believe it! Things are going really good still, finally feeling like I'm starting to know my stuff a bit more. Still have a looot to learn and it will be hard first starting out in a real office environment! Please be praying for me to be placed in a good office with a dentist that is patient and willing to teach me and doesn't freak out over little things. I keep hearing scary stories of other people in extern getting a scary dentist/office manager and that just terrifies me! I know that it isn't permanent and if I keep a positive and teachable attitude it will help but yeah.. mean dentists are just scary! So I'm pretty nervous about that.. And also pray for confidence and for me to not be insanely nervous haha! It's going to be here before I know it!
Life has been good lately! Work is really slow for Chris so that has been hard, but God sustains us and has been so good. We are not lacking in anything! :) He is still working towards getting his GRE in Pyschology. He's been studying like crazy! If he does good on this test it would cut down his school time a LOT and that would be a good thing since we are down to about 9 months till he would hopefully be starting academy! So pray for him on October 9th if you think about it!
I'm also preparing for a big test on the 8th. My Missouri Basic Skills test is that day! If I can pass that it opens the door for me to continue my education and have a chance to improve my skills in other areas called expanded functions. Basically that means depending on the classes I choose I can do more than just an average DA. Which would be awesome! Still getting straight A's at school, it's exciting!! Looks good on a resume too.. ;)
So coming up here soon we are going up to KC for a Chiefs vs. Bronco's game with some friends! It's going to be CRAZY cold, but I can't wait! GO Broncos!!
Well, I'm off to the gym!
Love,
Beth
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Almost there!
Almost there!! In more ways than one! Only one more day till Chris is home again, can't wait!! It's been hard having him away... :( I definitely love living with him!! So he'll be home tomorrow night and I'm stoked.. :) I have a great husband!
The other thing that I'm getting really close to, is finishing school!!! I am down to 3 1/2 months! I cannot believe it.. The time is literally flying by and it's so hard to believe that in less than 4 months I'll be working in a dental office! Not sure yet what the plan is for after extern, but I'm really trying to trust God to work something out!! I want Him to show me what He has in store!! I just want it now.. I don't like waiting and not knowing... But, there is nothing I can do about it so the only thing I CAN do is trust Him!! I'm excited and nervous all at the same time! Ready to get out there and get er' done!
Very much looking forward to this weekend! We're going camping with the family Friday night and then Chris and I are going for our date night to the drive in!! Loooove the drive in!! I literally HAVE to go every summer or it's just not summer!
Last weekend was really fun! Went up to the fam's house for the night and got to see everybody! Had family pictures taken and Crystal took some pics of me and Chris as well! I love getting new pics, plus, she takes amazing ones so it's even better!!
Well, just wanted to give a quick update.. :)
Beth
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Success!
Success is a wonderful word!! I think I like it! My success recently has been finally losing my wedding weight! I'm incredibly stoked to be back down to my small sizes and finally feeling healthy again! It took a lot of work and self control but I am BACK! WOOT! Now to tone, gotta hit the gym and really see what I can do! Still working with the Jillian Michaels workouts, heard they work awesome for women and I'm super excited for more results! Now to stick with it.. hard when you like any and all food haha! There IS such a thing as self control.. hmm... gonna have to remember that.. So worth it tho..
Well, hubby is gone right now.. Off in Arkansas helping a friend out for a few days.. Weird being home alone! Kinda lonely.. I decided I'm not a person who could live all by myself! I like company.. :)
School is going good, can't believe how fast it is going! But the more time I spend in school the more I'm ready to just get out there and get my career started! Sooo nervous about those first couple months... Once you are there and in the field, I feel like you really don't know what you're doing.. But I just want it to be here so I can get the awkwardness out of the way haha!
So Chris has been looking into the schooling he'll need for the State Patrol out here.. Kind of daunting, but I know he can do whatever he puts his mind too.. I'm so nervous of those six months he'll be at the academy.. If the prospect of being alone for the next couple days is sad and lonely, what will it be like to have him gone for 5 out of 7 days a week for 6 months?? I know we'll cross that bridge when we come to it tho. I'm hoping I'll have a job by then to keep me mostly occupied so it doesn't seem so lonely. At least I'll know he's safe, unlike so many wives who's husbands are overseas in the military. I am thankful for that!
Things have been so wonderful lately. I have the most amazing husband and I'm so blessed to have him. He came home with flowers for me the other day, out of the blue, no prompts or anything! Makes me feel so special to know he was thinking of me during his day!
Love him.. :)
On the creative side, got my table runner back after a little while at the quilters... Needless to say.. It's super cute! Albeit a little crooked, but who's looking that close?? Creative I am not haha! I may be a bit of a perfectionist in other areas, but definitely not when it comes to quilting! ;) Thanks to my wonderful mother in law and sis in law for all the help, I would seriously be lost otherwise haha!
Well, I am off! Not sure of my plans for the evening.... Kinda weird not hanging out with Chris! Miss him!!
Hope everyone's week is going fantastic!!
Beth
Well, hubby is gone right now.. Off in Arkansas helping a friend out for a few days.. Weird being home alone! Kinda lonely.. I decided I'm not a person who could live all by myself! I like company.. :)
School is going good, can't believe how fast it is going! But the more time I spend in school the more I'm ready to just get out there and get my career started! Sooo nervous about those first couple months... Once you are there and in the field, I feel like you really don't know what you're doing.. But I just want it to be here so I can get the awkwardness out of the way haha!
So Chris has been looking into the schooling he'll need for the State Patrol out here.. Kind of daunting, but I know he can do whatever he puts his mind too.. I'm so nervous of those six months he'll be at the academy.. If the prospect of being alone for the next couple days is sad and lonely, what will it be like to have him gone for 5 out of 7 days a week for 6 months?? I know we'll cross that bridge when we come to it tho. I'm hoping I'll have a job by then to keep me mostly occupied so it doesn't seem so lonely. At least I'll know he's safe, unlike so many wives who's husbands are overseas in the military. I am thankful for that!
Things have been so wonderful lately. I have the most amazing husband and I'm so blessed to have him. He came home with flowers for me the other day, out of the blue, no prompts or anything! Makes me feel so special to know he was thinking of me during his day!
Love him.. :)
On the creative side, got my table runner back after a little while at the quilters... Needless to say.. It's super cute! Albeit a little crooked, but who's looking that close?? Creative I am not haha! I may be a bit of a perfectionist in other areas, but definitely not when it comes to quilting! ;) Thanks to my wonderful mother in law and sis in law for all the help, I would seriously be lost otherwise haha!
Well, I am off! Not sure of my plans for the evening.... Kinda weird not hanging out with Chris! Miss him!!
Hope everyone's week is going fantastic!!
Beth
Monday, July 5, 2010
Things...
I always seem to let blogging get away from me.. I just forget about it! I need to do better. It's almost like journaling for me! Helps me to go back and remember moments in life!
Things have been different lately. I'm getting worn out. School is going good, and quickly, but I am so tired all the time that it's getting old. School + work for five days a week is getting tiring, but it's what you do! And I can't complain about my job, it really is the ideal thing for me right now! God is good. I just need to push through and look for the good instead of being down about the situation. Thing are never as bad as they seem. Haha! I can't complain, we are in good hands and I live in a great house with my wonderful little family. Chris is really the brightest part of my days, he is so wonderful. We just celebrated our first year together!! He surprised me with a trip to Branson for the weekend at this great little resort where we stayed in a fully stocked condo! It was amazing. I seriously love him more every day. He makes me laugh like no one else!
So things are kind of weird right now. The unknown is so great and weighing on me and I'm trying not to stress out about it. Work is slow for Chris so he has really been looking into the State Patrol more seriously. Things are just so up and down with it, hopes getting up, then down and all over the place that it is just hard not knowing what to do. Be praying we know what the next step is. I do NOT do good with the unkown. I'm terrible with it! I stress and worry and that's never good. I'm trying to just not think about it haha!
Sooooo yeah....
Other than this strange period in our lives things are good! Had a great 4th of July at I love America with a bunch of friends and family!! Chris' leg was feeling good enough for him to play volleyball! Praise God! So glad that stage of his life is pretty much over, that was a hard time to go through! He is definitely excited to move on from that! I am so glad he is almost back to fully functioning, I know it was hard for him.
I'm super excited for the 16th-18th, our first float trip! Can't wait! I've never been and I looove camping so I'm very excited to add canoeing to that. The only thing I'm nervous for: BUGS. BUGS. BUGS. YUCK. lol! I am such a wuss! We have Japanese beatles literally EATING all of our plants right now. Can't get rid of them.. So gross... They are making all our foliage look skeletal. I'm considering bringing my tea rose bush inside to rescue it! I've been watching it closely to make sure they haven't moved on to it yet.. I would be so sad! It's literally the little rose bush that could! Immediately after planting it Bailey decided to dig around in the pot and eat the blooms off of it... SO YEAH.. Somehow it lived!! So I'm ultra protective now haha!
Anyways, I think that's it for tonight.. I gotta go look at my vocab for school tomorrow... *sigh*... lol.. Think positive thoughts! Haha!!
Love,
Beth
Things have been different lately. I'm getting worn out. School is going good, and quickly, but I am so tired all the time that it's getting old. School + work for five days a week is getting tiring, but it's what you do! And I can't complain about my job, it really is the ideal thing for me right now! God is good. I just need to push through and look for the good instead of being down about the situation. Thing are never as bad as they seem. Haha! I can't complain, we are in good hands and I live in a great house with my wonderful little family. Chris is really the brightest part of my days, he is so wonderful. We just celebrated our first year together!! He surprised me with a trip to Branson for the weekend at this great little resort where we stayed in a fully stocked condo! It was amazing. I seriously love him more every day. He makes me laugh like no one else!
So things are kind of weird right now. The unknown is so great and weighing on me and I'm trying not to stress out about it. Work is slow for Chris so he has really been looking into the State Patrol more seriously. Things are just so up and down with it, hopes getting up, then down and all over the place that it is just hard not knowing what to do. Be praying we know what the next step is. I do NOT do good with the unkown. I'm terrible with it! I stress and worry and that's never good. I'm trying to just not think about it haha!
Sooooo yeah....
Other than this strange period in our lives things are good! Had a great 4th of July at I love America with a bunch of friends and family!! Chris' leg was feeling good enough for him to play volleyball! Praise God! So glad that stage of his life is pretty much over, that was a hard time to go through! He is definitely excited to move on from that! I am so glad he is almost back to fully functioning, I know it was hard for him.
I'm super excited for the 16th-18th, our first float trip! Can't wait! I've never been and I looove camping so I'm very excited to add canoeing to that. The only thing I'm nervous for: BUGS. BUGS. BUGS. YUCK. lol! I am such a wuss! We have Japanese beatles literally EATING all of our plants right now. Can't get rid of them.. So gross... They are making all our foliage look skeletal. I'm considering bringing my tea rose bush inside to rescue it! I've been watching it closely to make sure they haven't moved on to it yet.. I would be so sad! It's literally the little rose bush that could! Immediately after planting it Bailey decided to dig around in the pot and eat the blooms off of it... SO YEAH.. Somehow it lived!! So I'm ultra protective now haha!
Anyways, I think that's it for tonight.. I gotta go look at my vocab for school tomorrow... *sigh*... lol.. Think positive thoughts! Haha!!
Love,
Beth
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Life is wonderful
Wow,
These last couple weeks have been pretty awesome! So hard to believe that we are almost done with a month of school! Only about 6 months left! Our teacher resigned.. which was really sad.. She was pretty awesome, so we'll see how I feel about school in the next couple weeks haha! God is good and He placed me here so He has a plan!
I was able to see my wonderful mom last week... It was so nice. The weekend went crazy fast, which I knew it would, but it was better than not getting to see her at all! We are hoping in September possibly to make a trip out to Colorado! Chris hasn't seen our Colorado friends in almost a year! It will be another super short trip, but I'm so lucky to be able to see them as much as I do already. I have a lady in my class who just saw her mother for the first time in 7 years this weekend!! CRAZY!! I couldn't imagine going that long!
Today my lovely husband is taking me for a much needed date and scrub shopping outing!! We're trying a couple different places to see if I can find some cute scrubs for cheap. We are required to wear them to school so it's kinda important to have decent ones lol! I've been wearing the school issued ones and wow... I look like a boxy bag.. haha! I am liking it so far! It's so crazy how much we are learning.
SO yeah, excited for my date. He's so awesome, I <3 him.. :)
Other than that, not too much so far. It's been a great last week/s and I'm looking forward to summer! Jenny and I are planning on going to the pool after school once it gets nice! Can't wait!
Had our first "real" tornado threat the other day! I was up early working and the sirens went off and I didn't think much of it until I looked outside and WOW.. PITCH black skies!! I was kinda freaking out since it was the first time this had happened... I'm kinda a wuss... So I grabbed Chris and we watched as the sky just POURED and the tv was saying.. get yourself to shelter! haha! Turns out it was nothing and that was the end! Kind of a funny day tho lol.
Well I'm off! Gotta go get pretty for my husband lol! Right now it's not lookin' so hot.. ;)
<3 Beth
These last couple weeks have been pretty awesome! So hard to believe that we are almost done with a month of school! Only about 6 months left! Our teacher resigned.. which was really sad.. She was pretty awesome, so we'll see how I feel about school in the next couple weeks haha! God is good and He placed me here so He has a plan!
I was able to see my wonderful mom last week... It was so nice. The weekend went crazy fast, which I knew it would, but it was better than not getting to see her at all! We are hoping in September possibly to make a trip out to Colorado! Chris hasn't seen our Colorado friends in almost a year! It will be another super short trip, but I'm so lucky to be able to see them as much as I do already. I have a lady in my class who just saw her mother for the first time in 7 years this weekend!! CRAZY!! I couldn't imagine going that long!
Today my lovely husband is taking me for a much needed date and scrub shopping outing!! We're trying a couple different places to see if I can find some cute scrubs for cheap. We are required to wear them to school so it's kinda important to have decent ones lol! I've been wearing the school issued ones and wow... I look like a boxy bag.. haha! I am liking it so far! It's so crazy how much we are learning.
SO yeah, excited for my date. He's so awesome, I <3 him.. :)
Other than that, not too much so far. It's been a great last week/s and I'm looking forward to summer! Jenny and I are planning on going to the pool after school once it gets nice! Can't wait!
Had our first "real" tornado threat the other day! I was up early working and the sirens went off and I didn't think much of it until I looked outside and WOW.. PITCH black skies!! I was kinda freaking out since it was the first time this had happened... I'm kinda a wuss... So I grabbed Chris and we watched as the sky just POURED and the tv was saying.. get yourself to shelter! haha! Turns out it was nothing and that was the end! Kind of a funny day tho lol.
Well I'm off! Gotta go get pretty for my husband lol! Right now it's not lookin' so hot.. ;)
<3 Beth
Sunday, May 2, 2010
If I was a flower growing wild and free all I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee...
Had that song in my head.. :) It's so cute and wistful and makes me think of my wedding lol.
Can't believe we are almost to one year!! It doesn't seem like it's been that long already. I'm so hoping we can take a trip up to Big Cedar for that weekend but I'm also hoping my husband is planning something special, so we'll see.. :) Our first year has been awesome! I think being together for so "long" before we got married really did help. I really feel like we adjusted pretty easy! He's so easy going most of the time so that helps too huh? He evens me out.
So far school has been awesome! One week down! Crazy we'll be done in only 7 months! I am so praying God provides a job soon after school because I'm ready to have a job that will help me and Chris save for a house, save for our Mexico vacation we want to go on someday with all our friends and save for our future! Someday we do want kids and I want to have a few years of working down before we do that so that I can take time off to stay home! Weird to think of someday having kids, I think they will be exact clones of us.. We already look so similar lol! Our kids are going to be little blonde/brown blued eyed kids haha!
Back on the school subject! It's awesome! I'm a little bummed tho, our teacher just resigned and so we only have her for another 2 weeks... and then we get another teacher to finish up our time there! *sigh* kinda sad.. She was SO awesome.. Oh well, God knows and will provide someone awesome for us one way or the other... :) So it's going good! Learning a LOT and very fast, but it's great! I already feel smarter!
Let me tell ya what tho.. Changing my schedule, getting up earlier... I'm such an old lady!! I so hope my body adjusts to this SOON because goodness, being sleepy at 3 in the afternoon is hilarious! Hopefully not too much longer for the internal clock to re-set!
My mom comes this weekend!!! CAN'T WAIT!! Haven't seen her in a couple months, and I miss her! It's gonna be a good weekend! Hopefully I won't have too much homework to try and get done, because it's going to be a short weekend as it is... :(
Well, I'm off! School starts bright and early!
<3 Beth
Can't believe we are almost to one year!! It doesn't seem like it's been that long already. I'm so hoping we can take a trip up to Big Cedar for that weekend but I'm also hoping my husband is planning something special, so we'll see.. :) Our first year has been awesome! I think being together for so "long" before we got married really did help. I really feel like we adjusted pretty easy! He's so easy going most of the time so that helps too huh? He evens me out.
So far school has been awesome! One week down! Crazy we'll be done in only 7 months! I am so praying God provides a job soon after school because I'm ready to have a job that will help me and Chris save for a house, save for our Mexico vacation we want to go on someday with all our friends and save for our future! Someday we do want kids and I want to have a few years of working down before we do that so that I can take time off to stay home! Weird to think of someday having kids, I think they will be exact clones of us.. We already look so similar lol! Our kids are going to be little blonde/brown blued eyed kids haha!
Back on the school subject! It's awesome! I'm a little bummed tho, our teacher just resigned and so we only have her for another 2 weeks... and then we get another teacher to finish up our time there! *sigh* kinda sad.. She was SO awesome.. Oh well, God knows and will provide someone awesome for us one way or the other... :) So it's going good! Learning a LOT and very fast, but it's great! I already feel smarter!
Let me tell ya what tho.. Changing my schedule, getting up earlier... I'm such an old lady!! I so hope my body adjusts to this SOON because goodness, being sleepy at 3 in the afternoon is hilarious! Hopefully not too much longer for the internal clock to re-set!
My mom comes this weekend!!! CAN'T WAIT!! Haven't seen her in a couple months, and I miss her! It's gonna be a good weekend! Hopefully I won't have too much homework to try and get done, because it's going to be a short weekend as it is... :(
Well, I'm off! School starts bright and early!
<3 Beth
Thursday, April 22, 2010
New Beginnings
Oh my word! SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!!! The nervousness has eased a bit and I'm getting excited! I don't like the unknown, but I can't keep doing what I've been doing! I am going to just trust God to show me His will for my life! And to provide for us regarding re-paying student loans! UGH! I really think things are going to be changing like crazy in the next year or so. Once school is finished I'll be working (crosses fingers!!) and Chris is looking into doing police work!!
I used to have this list, called the MAN list. On it was all the things I wanted in a man. Well when Chris came along he just fit that list! On it was this tho: Doesn't want to be a police officer, or go into the military. To be honest, yes, it was selfish, but at the time I didn't want that. I didn't want to deal with the stress, the high rate of divorce (not that that would be an option!!) and the risk... It scared me to death. When I first met Chris he wasn't a police officer (which I believe was God's hand in the matter, because if he had been, we wouldn't have courted) which he COULD have been, he had had job offers from around the country after he was out of ALERT.
But I think God wanted him to wait, because we wouldn't have been a couple! So after being married oh lets see... I think it was over six months, God just told me this: TRUST ME. Chris had been talking about looking back into it but knew I was deathly afraid of it and therefore, didn't really do anything about it. But I was laying in bed one Saturday morning, and just thinking about it.. And God was telling me.. You have to trust me, he is mine, not yours and I will take care of him and take him when his time is.
And I remember crying thinking of what life would be like without him if something were to ever happen, and what the sleepless nights would be like with me worrying that he was in danger. But God just gave me a peace and told me to let go and let Him work in Chris' life. So I rolled over to Chris, and told him: if you want to be a police officer, you SHOULD be. I think you would be amazing at it. And I truly believe he would be! He is SO good at so many things, but his passion is to be a police officer! It's his dream job! And I was holding him back, keeping him from his potential life calling! And that is NOT what a wife should be! So in the following months God has continued to tell me to trust Him and He has given me such peace about that next chapter. If Chris does decide to do this, YES, it's going to be hard no matter what. But I do know this: God will guide us through this! So the next year and more will be quite interesting!! So much could change and probably will, crazy to think about! God is so good. He always provides!!
I can't believe summer is almost here!! I'm excited! I wish school wasn't over summer, but hey, it'll be done in 8 months or so so I can't complain! I'll be done by Christmas!
UGH, this morning, I found a black widow in our bathroom.... YUCK! That freaks me out lol.
This next month is going to be a good one. I'm going to KC to see my mom May 7th! I can't wait, I've really been having homesickness lately. I wish I could see everyone I miss, but seeing my mom will be so wonderful.
I think that the longer I'm away from my Colorado the more and more I miss it. It's really the little things:
*The outdoor mall used to screen movies outside and had free popcorn and cotton candy. Me and Brooke would meet up and just hang out in the warm summer air. I miss her so much. *Boating days with my cousins. Miss those guys like crazy. Just bumming around, laying on the outdoor tramp trying to tan, which they were successful at, me... Not so much.
*Sitting outside with my dad in the evenings, watching the sun set.. No bugs..
*Working out with my mom. She is such an inspiration to me.
*Evening runs with my brothers. Hate running, but loved chatting with them!
*"Tanning" with the little girls outside.. They are so cute with their towels and sunglasses lol.
*My "models" always available for a photo shoot!
*Drive in's with my best friends. Laughing till our sides hurt!! There are things I love and am learning to love about MO. But Colorado will always hold that special place in my heart. It's my favorite home.. Well, I'm off.. Sorry for the short novel! Props to you if you finished it! Just had a lot on my mind that I wanted to get out a bit.. haha!
Beth
My Chris took me took our first drive in of the Spring/Summer! The drive in is seriously one of my favorite things ever!! What a sweet husband I have.. :)
I used to have this list, called the MAN list. On it was all the things I wanted in a man. Well when Chris came along he just fit that list! On it was this tho: Doesn't want to be a police officer, or go into the military. To be honest, yes, it was selfish, but at the time I didn't want that. I didn't want to deal with the stress, the high rate of divorce (not that that would be an option!!) and the risk... It scared me to death. When I first met Chris he wasn't a police officer (which I believe was God's hand in the matter, because if he had been, we wouldn't have courted) which he COULD have been, he had had job offers from around the country after he was out of ALERT.
But I think God wanted him to wait, because we wouldn't have been a couple! So after being married oh lets see... I think it was over six months, God just told me this: TRUST ME. Chris had been talking about looking back into it but knew I was deathly afraid of it and therefore, didn't really do anything about it. But I was laying in bed one Saturday morning, and just thinking about it.. And God was telling me.. You have to trust me, he is mine, not yours and I will take care of him and take him when his time is.
And I remember crying thinking of what life would be like without him if something were to ever happen, and what the sleepless nights would be like with me worrying that he was in danger. But God just gave me a peace and told me to let go and let Him work in Chris' life. So I rolled over to Chris, and told him: if you want to be a police officer, you SHOULD be. I think you would be amazing at it. And I truly believe he would be! He is SO good at so many things, but his passion is to be a police officer! It's his dream job! And I was holding him back, keeping him from his potential life calling! And that is NOT what a wife should be! So in the following months God has continued to tell me to trust Him and He has given me such peace about that next chapter. If Chris does decide to do this, YES, it's going to be hard no matter what. But I do know this: God will guide us through this! So the next year and more will be quite interesting!! So much could change and probably will, crazy to think about! God is so good. He always provides!!
I can't believe summer is almost here!! I'm excited! I wish school wasn't over summer, but hey, it'll be done in 8 months or so so I can't complain! I'll be done by Christmas!
UGH, this morning, I found a black widow in our bathroom.... YUCK! That freaks me out lol.
This next month is going to be a good one. I'm going to KC to see my mom May 7th! I can't wait, I've really been having homesickness lately. I wish I could see everyone I miss, but seeing my mom will be so wonderful.
I think that the longer I'm away from my Colorado the more and more I miss it. It's really the little things:
*The outdoor mall used to screen movies outside and had free popcorn and cotton candy. Me and Brooke would meet up and just hang out in the warm summer air. I miss her so much. *Boating days with my cousins. Miss those guys like crazy. Just bumming around, laying on the outdoor tramp trying to tan, which they were successful at, me... Not so much.
*Sitting outside with my dad in the evenings, watching the sun set.. No bugs..
*Working out with my mom. She is such an inspiration to me.
*Evening runs with my brothers. Hate running, but loved chatting with them!
*"Tanning" with the little girls outside.. They are so cute with their towels and sunglasses lol.
*My "models" always available for a photo shoot!
*Drive in's with my best friends. Laughing till our sides hurt!! There are things I love and am learning to love about MO. But Colorado will always hold that special place in my heart. It's my favorite home.. Well, I'm off.. Sorry for the short novel! Props to you if you finished it! Just had a lot on my mind that I wanted to get out a bit.. haha!
Beth
My Chris took me took our first drive in of the Spring/Summer! The drive in is seriously one of my favorite things ever!! What a sweet husband I have.. :)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sigh..
I'm so frustrated. I just need a little vent and a little motivation. I would think I have enough motivation, I'm sick and tired of certain things in my life and yet I won't make the effort to change them. I mean honestly..
There are so many things I want but they take time and I seem to be incapable of achieving them! I've not only been frustrated with that but stressed with the whole school thing. I hate that it is so much to go and that is the only thing holding me back. And what if I don't like it?? I'll have spent so much to go through school only to not like what I do for the rest of my career?? I am just confused. I want to KNOW what I'm supposed to do. I want to be told, to be honest. I hate having to choose for myself lol. I'm bad at being an adult haha! So I have been feeling so stressed. I can't get it out of my mind and I can't seem to make UP my mind! I just need to give it over to Jesus and wait on Him. I just want a clearcut decision. Maybe that's too much to ask. I don't know.
I hate feeling down. I just want to have it figured out and to do what I'm supposed to!
This is my decleration: I CAN do this. I CAN be an adult and I will figure this out and do what I need to do to make my life better.
Here is my to do list for the next month:
1. Run three miles. And also, run three times a week.
2. Finish my Jillian Michaels diet with a BANG and to stick to it for the whole 30 days!
3. Decide on/start school or get a job before then.
4. TRUST GOD.
5. Start church hunting more seriously.
6. Work harder on my photography.
7. Be a better wife to my sweetest husband.
Oh in other news besides all that depressing stuff.. (sorry about that btw, it just helps me feel better to get it off my chest)..
I FRIED yesterday! Went walking/running with Jenny and our dogs yesterday and oh my gosh I am red like a lobster! Wow it hurts. And not only after that, I decided to make mashed potatoes for dinner and proceeded to chop part of my finger off with a potato peeler! lol! Ok not funny it looks so horrible, but the story with it does sound pretty funny. Dancing around my kitchen, wrapping toilet paper and electrical tape around my hand (don't laugh, I was trying to make a big bandaid... Didn't work) and calling both of my mothers trying to find out what to do when you chop you finger up. lol! Wow.. My husband has been SO sweet to me!! He insisted on my sitting down and doing nothing while he proceeded to make dinner for us! And he was so cute bandaging my finger up. :( On top of that, he's been taking care of my sunburn too haha! I am just a mess this week! God is good tho, all the time. :D
I love:
1. The chinese restaraunt down the road from us.. YUM.
2. My wonderful hubby!!
3. Breakfast in bed..
4. Coffee
5. The way running makes me feel when I'm done.
6. Popcorn
7. The way eating healthy makes me feel.
8. My family.. And extended family. I'm so lucky.
There are so many things I want but they take time and I seem to be incapable of achieving them! I've not only been frustrated with that but stressed with the whole school thing. I hate that it is so much to go and that is the only thing holding me back. And what if I don't like it?? I'll have spent so much to go through school only to not like what I do for the rest of my career?? I am just confused. I want to KNOW what I'm supposed to do. I want to be told, to be honest. I hate having to choose for myself lol. I'm bad at being an adult haha! So I have been feeling so stressed. I can't get it out of my mind and I can't seem to make UP my mind! I just need to give it over to Jesus and wait on Him. I just want a clearcut decision. Maybe that's too much to ask. I don't know.
I hate feeling down. I just want to have it figured out and to do what I'm supposed to!
This is my decleration: I CAN do this. I CAN be an adult and I will figure this out and do what I need to do to make my life better.
Here is my to do list for the next month:
1. Run three miles. And also, run three times a week.
2. Finish my Jillian Michaels diet with a BANG and to stick to it for the whole 30 days!
3. Decide on/start school or get a job before then.
4. TRUST GOD.
5. Start church hunting more seriously.
6. Work harder on my photography.
7. Be a better wife to my sweetest husband.
Oh in other news besides all that depressing stuff.. (sorry about that btw, it just helps me feel better to get it off my chest)..
I FRIED yesterday! Went walking/running with Jenny and our dogs yesterday and oh my gosh I am red like a lobster! Wow it hurts. And not only after that, I decided to make mashed potatoes for dinner and proceeded to chop part of my finger off with a potato peeler! lol! Ok not funny it looks so horrible, but the story with it does sound pretty funny. Dancing around my kitchen, wrapping toilet paper and electrical tape around my hand (don't laugh, I was trying to make a big bandaid... Didn't work) and calling both of my mothers trying to find out what to do when you chop you finger up. lol! Wow.. My husband has been SO sweet to me!! He insisted on my sitting down and doing nothing while he proceeded to make dinner for us! And he was so cute bandaging my finger up. :( On top of that, he's been taking care of my sunburn too haha! I am just a mess this week! God is good tho, all the time. :D
I love:
1. The chinese restaraunt down the road from us.. YUM.
2. My wonderful hubby!!
3. Breakfast in bed..
4. Coffee
5. The way running makes me feel when I'm done.
6. Popcorn
7. The way eating healthy makes me feel.
8. My family.. And extended family. I'm so lucky.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
30 days
30 Days from now... I'm gonna be RIPPED. At least, that's what Jill says! I sure hope she knows what she's talking about... ha! lol. Today was the first day on the new diet. I desperately need to go shopping!! Otherwise this is gonna kick my butt because I'll have nothing to eat! haha! So shopping day Friday! Big list of all healthy things... weird! I can't wait till day 30!!
So this week is going to fly by, already is as a matter of fact! Yesterday we went and saw Alice in Wonderland with Steve and Jenny. Didn't think I wanted to see that movie, but it was actually pretty good! Tomorrow we head up to the in-laws to see Josh and Anna! :D We'll be staying the night up there and getting in some good family time! We've been going to a Dave Ramsey financial peace course and let me tell you, it's awesome! So many good insights into saving money, etc. I told Chris we'll be millionaires when we're old and all the things we'll be able to do with our millions.. haha!! Let's all hope shall we?? On Friday I might be selling my camera!! I'm so nervous! lol.. I know I know.... I'll get another one, but I'm all nervous it will be a while since I have to save up quite a bit to get the next one. But I cannot WAIT to get the other one!! Ah, my D90.... Sigh.... :) Super stoked...
7 random, wonderful, weird things about my week so far:
1. I made a choice to better myself!
2. I went to the library for the first time in about a year.
3. I got to hang out with my awesome sister in law.. :) (don't worry Jenny, that's not one of the weird things about my week haha!)
4. Went and saw another 3D movie, which I haven't decided I like or not... hmmm... I think it makes my eyes hurt haha! But the movie was good!
5. Got to sleep in, ah.. That's always nice.
6. Might have found someone to buy my camera! Woot! Now for God to provide the rest!
7. Decided I like Sour Skittles more than I thought.. They just make my tongue hurt and my eyes water a bit... lol!
Ok, that's about it... ;)
Beth
So this week is going to fly by, already is as a matter of fact! Yesterday we went and saw Alice in Wonderland with Steve and Jenny. Didn't think I wanted to see that movie, but it was actually pretty good! Tomorrow we head up to the in-laws to see Josh and Anna! :D We'll be staying the night up there and getting in some good family time! We've been going to a Dave Ramsey financial peace course and let me tell you, it's awesome! So many good insights into saving money, etc. I told Chris we'll be millionaires when we're old and all the things we'll be able to do with our millions.. haha!! Let's all hope shall we?? On Friday I might be selling my camera!! I'm so nervous! lol.. I know I know.... I'll get another one, but I'm all nervous it will be a while since I have to save up quite a bit to get the next one. But I cannot WAIT to get the other one!! Ah, my D90.... Sigh.... :) Super stoked...
7 random, wonderful, weird things about my week so far:
1. I made a choice to better myself!
2. I went to the library for the first time in about a year.
3. I got to hang out with my awesome sister in law.. :) (don't worry Jenny, that's not one of the weird things about my week haha!)
4. Went and saw another 3D movie, which I haven't decided I like or not... hmmm... I think it makes my eyes hurt haha! But the movie was good!
5. Got to sleep in, ah.. That's always nice.
6. Might have found someone to buy my camera! Woot! Now for God to provide the rest!
7. Decided I like Sour Skittles more than I thought.. They just make my tongue hurt and my eyes water a bit... lol!
Ok, that's about it... ;)
Beth
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Ah Jillian
Wow, I pretty much love Jillian Michaels... I've been doing her No More Trouble Zones, 30 Day Shred and every now and then the killer cardio workout Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism. WOW, it's awesome! I've noticed little changes already. I just ordered her 30 day diet book and cannot wait to get started!
I want to get healthy and fit and be in better shape than I was at my wedding! I think I underestimate myself and man, it feels good to start seeing change and to see muscle coming back and to be making a difference in my health. We've been adding so many more veggies to our diet and working on eating more frequently and healthier portions. I am still working on the running thing... Ugh, I wish I loved it! I just need to force myself to get into the habit of it, once I get into the habit of it, like working out, I'll want to do it and need to do it to feel good! I can't wait to reach my goals and to feel good.
So things haven't been to busy lately, just the norm. We've been battling a cold between the both of us, Chris is worse off than I am. I have just the nose thing and he's been feeling way ickier, tired, stuffy... Poor guy. I hope he get's better soon, I know its getting old for him. Tomorrow we go to the Drs. office to get xrays to see how his leg is doing. I'm SO hoping the Dr. gives the okay for him to take the boot off and start rehabilitating his leg. It's going to be a long haul for him, he's lost so much mobility already and it's only been six weeks. It will be so hard the first couple of weeks trying to get back into even walking, much less all the calf exercises he'll need to do in order to get the flexibility back. I'm excited for him to be back to normal tho, these past couple of weeks have been hard on him. You never realize how much you use something until you can't anymore! God has been soo good to us through this whole process and Chris has handled everything so well. We are so blessed.
School starts in about a month and a half! I'm getting excited for the change! Before everything gets 100% finalized I'm going to see about shadowing a dental assistant at a nearby office to see what all I would be doing and if I would like it! I'm excited.
I booked a wedding!! Well, almost haha! She is still working it all out with the parents, who are footing the bill, which I understand! Wow, I'm super stoked! And I'm hoping before the big day I'll have my new camera!! As of now I'm selling my Nikon D70 in hopes of being able to upgrade to the D90!! I'll die of happiness!!
Not too much else at this point, working on another table runner, this time for my kitchen table! I <3 it... :)
Well, I'm off, today is Jillians 30 day shred and then a spinning session! Wish me luck!
Bethany
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